Vibe with me BB!

Hey not in the mood to think in rhyme schemes but... I am a bit down but I wouldn't call it sad in a way just a bit down. I'm just lonely. Not like I want someone cuddling me or anything but just like having a friend to talk to and one who loves the conversation. Not just a listener, someone who can communicate with me on the level that is rarely met. I think the generation we are living in is one that stays making eye contact with their smart phones or smart devices. Think about it, when do you think a person has time in the day to have a down to earth conversation with anyone besides Alexa. So yeah thats the reason im a bit down. Just disappointed with the communication level surrounding me I suppose.

What has this become?

Its crazy how many ways a heart can break.
More than once and usually happens more than twice.
But silly me thought heartbreaks had breaks in between.
Maybe im just lucky .. To be fucked over by multiple people who claimed to love me.
But actions always said opposite.
Look at me and tell me what you see.
A lost soul, thinking she was found.
A single being thinking she came in a pair?
Am I just someone they use.
Being taken advantage of daily.
Use me for what I have to make you feel better.
Use me to make yourself feel pretty.
Use me as a pon for all the little games you play.
What am I too you?
How strong do I look?
And what are you getting from me?

Love Lacker

Its crazy being married still looking for love.
But now i just look for it with my person.
Some days its easily spotted and others feel like its lost at sea.
When you're a romantic in a relationship lacking passion, interaction, sexy romance.
There is no love movie in my reality.
Just a lover who lacks love.