Moving Day Is Almost Here

So today me and Toni get the keys to the house we are renting and I talked to my parents about it and I now see that they wont be apart of my life after I leave since I will be with Toni; well any female they wouldn't be okay with. But actually hearing a parent saying that kind of stuff really tears you down and after hearing them say they love you. So I decided to just call Toni and tell her everything and how im happy that her parents are so supportive about all of it and I just im annoyed by my side and im happy about knowing that when I do marry toni that her parents will show up at the wedding and support us all the way.

Updates

Sorry everyone that I haven't been blogging lately I have just been busy with my birthday and track and my relationship.
 so where do I begin. I had my birthday and I didn't do much I went to practice that day then I came home had my sushi lunch date with my dad. Then later that evening I called Toni and said she can have me for the day. so we went to the movies and that was cool I enjoyed my birthday. But I got measured for the Navy shortly after and I made measurements. so I signed papers last Monday and I go to get my physical tomorrow which I am nervous for because im scared my butt got bigger ugh the struggle with having a booty...

So its the 3/24/2015
alright so I cant go into the military. because of my depression that I had years ago and that pretty much fucked up all chances that I had. im bummed out about it but I always keep a plan B so im going into massage therapy this fall im doing the paperwork  now so its really no big deal.

But today I am just happy with life. I am enjoying my girl and my family knows about her. she is suppose to look at houses today which is exciting, I opened up a new bank account at a new bank. I was cutting wood today and I forgot I was cutting maple wood. and the smell of syrup really fucks with my stomach so I puked

Just Thinking

Birthday is now 6 days away and I am excited!! Tonight I am suppose to see Toni, But the weather is going to be bad I hear so you never know. I might have to wait till my birthday. I would be sad if I didn't see her because I can tell how we act when we don't see each other and its not good. We fight a lot when we go over a week without seeing each other. Before last year we barely saw each other and it wasn't a huge deal but then once we were able to actually see each other and hang out more we became more attached. I like it and I hate it all at the same time. Last night I was watching the Real World (Skeletons) and a girls ex came to the house and her boyfriend that's also apart of the cast was so jealous and I was just thinking about myself in that situation. I would most likely act the same way as he did.  That really just made me think about everything and my choices. When I was hung up on someone who couldn't love me how I wanted but I still wanted the person (Tiffany) and she tired to make me pick her or Toni. I told her not to do that with me and she pushed it and in the end I picked Toni. I trust her and she is my best friend. and I see something that last for a long time rather than someone who would only last a month because I or she gets bored. Sex can only go so far. just saying. But I know I need Toni in my life. She has done so much for me on a mental level that no one else can even do. she knows every part of me that I cant just open up and talk about. But I was sad about Tiffany wanting nothing to do with me because I did care for her. I just will put Toni before anyone. Its always been like that and I will never beg anyone to stay if they want to go, I would open the door wide. Unless its Toni the boor is glued shut and locked and I lost the key 6 years ago . She trapped and stuck with me. Dating or not she is still my best friend.

Update On Me

Alright welcome to March! I have 7 more days till my birthday.
What are my plans? well at first I decided to go out to lunch with my girlfriend, my best friend and 3 other friends of mine. but Toni hates people. Like its cute sometimes but this time it was her being selfish. Like its not her birthday but she already to have an attitude. But she is so lucky because I would have dragged her ass with me if she liked it or not. At first it was going to be me toni. best friend her boyfriend, and Nessa and her boyfriend. Best friend and her boyfriend broke up and she is sad so I changed it to me and nat and maybe our friend Kat and we would go hang out and do something fun. Then me and Toni could have a separate day. that way everyone is happy and I wont here about anyone having a bad day. .

News if you guys were wondering about Tiffany we are still cool. Even after all that has happened she is living with her ex still and actually told me that she is planning to make him move out which seems hard for me knowing that there might be feelings still there but I am trying to ignore them and keep it on a friendship level only. so yeah

Track is back and I think I am still good. I am always one everyone comes to or is helping when getting people in the mood to run so that is also a plus. I love track and everything about it. But when I have negativity all around me that's when track wasn't so good for me. Which was last year. This year im trying to come in with a positive attitude towards it all. But im trying to make it more fun than last year. I love my friends but when they caused so much drama last season and are talking about coming back this year to help im just like no guys please stay away this season I am not ready for all the drama.

All in all I am just happy right now. My best friend is about to go off to college, and im so close with the military. Im just really want to get started with my future and I am excited for all of it including the failures because that's how you learn. well that's all im going to say for now have a good day loves