Failing

I fail
Fail at life
Fail with making it with you
Just fail

How can I make it
When I keep doing the stupid shit that I do
But will you see my failure
Hiding it so well

To the point that I sometimes forget
How bad I can be
How I have the flaws that ruin me
Everything that I have

Everything that I worked for
All gone
Because I keep repeating myself
And the things that I do

All because of the failure
I hold
So close and dear
To my heart

Not Going Back

I say no feelings are involved
But that might be a lie
I hate the feelings that I have
But imma hide them
Cover them up
Shove them under the carpet
The one that no one knows about

I have someone
I don't need you to ruin things for me
Yeah we had a history
But like I said we had a history
But that's it
Nothing more
Nothing less

I am in love
Someone close to me
Someone I loved from the start
So leave me alone
And keep things like they are
As friends and that's it

Off My Chest

Being worried fills me up
Pain fills my body
Tears seem to fall
Not knowing what tomorrow holds
Only thing I know is that
Im happy you were by my side during
All of the headache

You walked with me
And held my hand
You seen my pain
And felt it just the same

You are my best friend
That wouldn't be replaced

You know my love for you is unconditional
That only reason for it
Is that god brought you in
My life to stay

You are my freedom
When I feel trapped
You are my breath
When I cant breathe

I love you
And I just wanted to get that off my chest

Uncontrolled Feelings

My feelings run deep
how I usually feel
but yet they sink
for someone whose unknown
to you

I love you
yes
but you aren't here
with me and I am ok with it

its just hard
living without you

To My Love

To my love that I see
to the love that I hold
to the love that comes with me
to the love comes willingly

Hold me tight
hold me right
even if I cry with all my might

Never let me go
never let me leave
doing this ill love you easily

Hold my hand
Hold it right
Never let go
just hold it tight

Lost Love

 

My love was once lost
but then I found you
you taught me never to give up
when it came down to my feelings
you showed me what real love looked like
you became the one I saw my future with
and now I call you my love
once it was lost
but you found it

How do you know

How do you know if she is the one
Looking into her eyes
You see what could be
Then looking back
You see yourself going in the same pattern
Over and over
Trying to give your all
But this time is she worth it
All the pain and heartbreak
Will she do me like the rest
Or will she treat you as though your her best
Will she seal you as a crest
Either way I hope you pass her test.

I think im falling again

what do I do if I fall again.
I try so hard to stay on my feet
but all seems to fail when I find a balance
You stand next to me
Poke your foot out
And make me stumble
Heads over heels
In love with you
And I cant help
But love you