Making Every Day Positive

 This week has been a crazy week for my marriage 

A lot of talking and understanding 

After me and my wife moved in together about a year when we settled in, we noticed my wife was struggling with her anxiety .

I would like to consider myself an advocate for mental health so I was understanding that hanging out with certain people she would be more irritable than when we are alone together. 

We both were not aware that anxiety could grow to other things, so I'd always just tell myself she will grow out of it as if it was just a stage in life. But it turned into Agoraphobia. 

Now we are going through a new venture in our lives to work through this because She herself is tired of the feeling it brings her and I have to keep telling her how normal anxiety is and it's just a deeper level. 

Wish us luck with the new journey at hand. 

This is America

What is America to you? America used to be a place that wasn't based off judgement. Maybe that's how we imagined it would be. Most immigrants believe a dream is what America stands for; or maybe its the dream of having a fresh start and a new life. Its funny how everyone who came to this country feel the same(except terrorists of course) .

 It's crazy the stories that are in deed true. First, a lady born and raised in America, started to become uncomfortable with a colored family at a park having a bbq. Seems odd still to me being a colored woman and knowing families( of all races) love having quality time with family. So yeah, seems az though that reaction was a bit dramatic. Second, restaurants and local businesses that show racist prejudices that calls cops on minor things when now and days people are more scared of being innocent having the cops called because no one knows how cops will respond to their calls because all Americans are different. Oh yeah, and people are openly prejudices. The acton of calling a cop because a consumer needs to use the restroom. I wonder if the owners of these local places think of the prejudice acts the have but put their own family on the side of hate things could be different but those thoughts never cross anyone who is prejudice against other racist.

Third reason that drove me to blog happens to be a male at a restaurant that really turned me off on society. A NY city lawyer ( a guy who is educated, knows laws, and tries to enforce them) He speaks fluent spanish threatened to call I.C.E for a couple of Spanish speaking American. I can tell you this, if he treats people like this outside of work how does he act when he is in a court room or at work towards other coworkers who's background is different than his own. Adding to him a woman who calls the cops for a lady taking a napping in a common area. No crimes were committed by the ones who had cops called on them.
 Who do these people think they are? To use America's justice department as backup for their bias behaviors. Which makes me realize they might believe cops share the same bias as they do. Back to my beginning question, what is America to you?What do you think? Also, What are your opinions

How much do you care?

Self Care❤

Mental health is a major issue in the world that we live in. Not knowing also is an issue than many don't talk about. Today im going to be the one to shed a little light on the issue. 

Today I watched a couple of interviews from "The Breakfast Club" radio show. One guess that stood out to me was, Jennifer Lewis. She spoke about mental health and Charlemagne the god usually speaks on it as well.  (I wont go into the video, you just have to look her up get her book read it and stay hip to The breakfast club.

Alright! Therapy 

Many people have their own opinion about therapy and its understandable. My opinion used to be negative in a way. As if i didnt see the positivity in it. 

Think of an alcoholic. He thinks, its okay to drink 5 beers a day because he seen his father and grandfather doing it.  Don't you think there should have been someone to say there is a problem or wait until someone let the alcohol get out of control to start to speak up. I look at therapy as that person that tells you warning signs of your life falling apart. To go to a place and talk to a professional about your daily life and shed light on your perspective of life and someone explaining feelings you never thought to ask a love one. 

Warning signs are important. Therapy is important. 

Have a great day guys hope everyone have a blessed day!!

New Faces coming to YOUTUBE!!!

New ideas are coming in guys. So me and my wife are about to start a youtube page under our small company name we started together. MayMade, so if anyone has an logo idea that comes to mind you are free to email me and Toni at Maymade09@gmail.com..

But we are making a page basically to give our opinion on different places, celebrities, just giving our opinion on many different topics. MayMade is the first of many company we are trying to build and Youtube is just one of many sources to get our brand name out there. I hope to see all of you to subscribe to our future page. Thanks for your time. Like always I love all the supporters .

Me popping in.

Today is a great day. How about you guys? Has today came to be what you expected? For me yes. Yesterday was a hard and long day. It was the first day of my fast so been hungry and craving . Im also sick. But today, I feel better than I did. So im thankful.  Have a great day.

Thoughts of 20

Today is the last day I'll be 20 .  Its weird because the week itself has been full of crazy and draining (I cought a cold) and it seems to be getting worse even with taking medicine.  Anyways, its also been a very good week. The weather has been nice figuring out new or expanding housing arrangements!! A bit excited. But Anyways I'm excited to take my wife to Many different areas for date nights but age wise Im feeling like im focused more on my career and happiness in life in general which overall is on its A game. So goodbye 20 hello to 21!!!🎊🍸🍻🎉🍺🎉🍷

Vibe with me BB!

Hey not in the mood to think in rhyme schemes but... I am a bit down but I wouldn't call it sad in a way just a bit down. I'm just lonely. Not like I want someone cuddling me or anything but just like having a friend to talk to and one who loves the conversation. Not just a listener, someone who can communicate with me on the level that is rarely met. I think the generation we are living in is one that stays making eye contact with their smart phones or smart devices. Think about it, when do you think a person has time in the day to have a down to earth conversation with anyone besides Alexa. So yeah thats the reason im a bit down. Just disappointed with the communication level surrounding me I suppose.