What to do? What to do?

I just feel as though im just a boring person now. I used to say so much about myself but now im just that basic person. I work five days out of the week then I also have school Monday, Wednesday, and Friday's so I technically have one day off and that one day is a Tuesday which all my friends are busy or at school or work and im just stuck alone bored and feeling as though i wasted a whole day. now what the fuck is that. I want to go to Virginia so bad because i know there is so much more to do and i have family there and i have always wanted to go but Toni hates water like she doesn't want to live by water when that is my dream... Its depressing. I wouldn't want to go anywhere without her. I don't know what is holding me back when I blog but there is just so much going on right now and a lot of confusion. I just wish i had a week alone to discover myself and not worry about anything and get my thoughts together. I am dealing with issues i had last year and im still fucking up. I just need someone to talk to and maybe things will get better. Who knows...