We Overcame It

I have came such a mighty long way from where I was 4 years ago well more like 3 years ago.
Mentally going back and forth with if I wanted to be here or not
deciding whether to choose the blade or the pill
when the touch of a blade just gave me a sudden chill
How can this be
when the life I wanted to take belonged to me
That when I tried, I just couldn't go through with it
and after I felt like shit
When it started with my parents not claiming me
after I told them that I wasn't into a he and it just happened to be a she
Religion played a huge role
That's when my life began to take a toll
when the ones who were suppose to love you
gave up and just wouldn't do
Talking down on me and my sins
I just never could understand how me loving someone
would send me to a place known as hell.
How I could have a relationship
with no sins involved until marriage
and serve him to the fullest
and still not gain their love
I was just that black dove to my parents
And that want started the blade
with all the scars that were hidden in the shade
when my heart would just concave
So I got into poetry to put my feelings down in fine print
I couldn't put down everything just a little bit
I guess that helped calm me down
Maybe it did adjust my frown
But I still didn't feel complete
I felt like I wouldn't be enough
The good grades the obedience just made it seem so tough
And that turned me into the one I am today
Scared that I wouldn't be good enough for anyone
Where my trust issues come to play
and its not just for a day
Im laughing now because it all calmed down in May
That's when I met her
when she took the blade out my hand
and buried it deep within the hollow sand
she throw away my pills
and told me how great I really was
But she had issues herself
She also had a blade and a disorder that could she held so close
when I was one of the only ones she trusted
when she heart and body were under construction
She told me to stop and I said the same
and we didn't really know who was to blame
Growing up together we knew each other to that level
In a way she knew what she had to do
We made a promise to quite together
Yeah we had our slips but it was still enough to try to quit
Now she is the reason why the blade stops

I actually didn't try to type this as a poem or anything I just broke my thoughts up and it came out and I just let it go on so this is what you got. I just wanted it to be a entry on my thought process and I just let it flow. but thank you for reading this