So the question today is from my dear old teacher,
she was my Spanish teacher and asked "Carmen what is wrong with your
face?" My name isn't Carmen, It was my old Spanish name. And what she
meant by What’s wrong with my face, that is because I am usually smiling so
when I am not she always say that. And
the reason of why I’m not smiling is because I’m sad as fuck! I really don’t know
why though when I expected this exact situation to happen.
So lets go over the situation. I was with someone
and I was happy, to the point of distance in a relationship. So like duh I was sad that I couldn’t be with
her and she was sad too. But anyways, she used to live with her ex. And the
other day she told me since he is still on the lease he wants to move back in
with her. And let me put this out there
when I was with her he would still sleep on her couch some nights and he didn’t
even know she was with me! Let me stay on topic, so once she told me this she
was saying how she couldn’t say no because he does still pay some bills. I was
quiet about it and just told her I was going to bed. I woke up at like 3 and
was just thinking and since I know her I knew she isn’t the cheating type. She would
just dump me and go on with it. In that note I put all guards up so I wouldn’t have
much emotion to it when it comes down to the break up. So once she woke up I told
her that I feel like she will dump me sooner or later I was just waiting on it,
and she said “..ok” that exactly!! Like what the hell did she even care at all.
Later I check my phone and there is a long paragraph on how she wants to put us
on pause. I was cool with that because I could do what I want but I know we
would still talk. Then we started talking about her ex. And it seems as though
she basically wants him back the one that made her depressed in the first
place. Well my rant is over.
and that was my day off yesterday
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