Alright well today is December the 9th and my day has been pretty good. For starters my night was alright my girlfriend had some things she had to do for her best friend (it was on the dangerous side in my opinion) But she came home happy and in a positive mood so that was just fine, then we ended our night on good terms. and this morning she was actually being extremely loving towards me so duh im going to be happy. I think she knows we have been having a rocky week so I think she is getting back to the sick of being mad at each other. When I think I have been the one who seemed to be mad at her most of the time. So its getting better.
I am actually trying with her. Which to most people who don't know me would think I would be the type of person that actually puts my all in every relationship that I have been in which im not that type at all... I hold my guards up and don't let anyone really get to know the personal parts of me, I don't know why I do it. I cant help it. But Toni is the only person I have ever opened up to. I know why though. I met her when I was in 7th grade and she was straight and I was just coming out so we were just friends like that's it nothing more and nothing less. and after a year of being with a cheater and a liar then Toni was the one that picked me back up from being so depressed. After that we just were great friends and a year later I guess feelings were involved like I loved her like she was family then I was like woah she is attractive too and you know what I want her to be with someone who will treat her like she should be treated.... (end up being me) But the point of that is me saying she know the personal emotional part of me before we started dating and I guess that is why we do this.
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